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Ever After?
How do you continually say such hurtful sh*t?
Next you apologize then I’m just supposed to forget?
Like it all just goes away?
How can you say you don’t mean the things you say,
When you say the exact same as you said yesterday?
How can you say you love this person you so venomously describe?
How can you spit such hate, while looking me dead in the eyes?
How do you believe you love me when all other evidence proves you’re beginning to hate me?
Why is it such torture when we are together?
Who am I trying to kid, when we’re apart it ain’t much better
Every breath, every moment, every word seems to go completely unheard, unnoticed
Underestimated is the pain of such misunderstandings
Tell me, honestly if we haven’t figured out how to be happy together yet, do you think we ever can be?
If we still spend every night like this will you ever attempt to understand me?
I realize nothing I do seems right to you,
I do things a lil differently than most I’ll admit
To be completely fair tho, it’s not like I kept it a secret
What is it you used to love about me?
Did I somehow change so immensely, or did you just finally let go of trying to make me the person you think I ought to be?
Once you say something you can’t just take it back
There’s always some truth behind it, no matter how hard the attack
Some I wish you could undo tho because they feel like the sharpest knives in my heart and trying to slice right thru
My heart that’s where you generally aim your linguistic sword, always going for the kill shot
Each blow hurts so much more than you may have thought
Yet I get back up, trying to hold on only to be pushed back down again
Fighting so f*cking hard to just ignore the pain while refusing to show my shame
I truly am so lost you know, no matter how hard I look I rarely seem to find my way anywhere
Do you really think I float so freely thru life, nothing in my head but air?
If only you could peek inside and see all these damn thoughts weighing down on me
I’m like a chameleon always in the background, seeming to blend right in
I just can’t keep up the fight any more, it’s really beginning to look like neither one ofus will ever win
Hurting each other instead over and over,
every day and every night
Aren’t you tired from this fight,
because honestly it looks like there’s no end in sight
©2014 Clovers All Over
River Rock Walkin’
Down by the river pickin’ up some heart rocks
No music, just a few friends, even fewer talks
Serenity sensationally silencing, surprisingly
Lost in awe, thoughts contained, far from drained
Energy in fact picking up with the winds whim
Worries turn to wonders
While the wisdom washes away all cares
Nothing like the feeling of the crisp morning air
Chills to the bone like ripples around the crashing waves
Almost reminiscent of more youthful days
Soft soothing sloshing sounds slowly seeping in subconsciously
Finding myself reminding myself not to listen too intently
So easily I can get lost in my own thoughts
The mind almost begging for the change in the air to rub off
Hours can pass as quickly as the clouds
If I get caught in a daze
Sometimes it’s hard to see thru the misty morning haze
Even on some of the clearest days
©2014 Shavon Taylor @ Cloversallover.com
Forgotten Forest
I wonder if you seek your happiness in the same way I seek mine
With such cold calculation realizing there is none there to find
Saying with such pride “I’m ready to change”
In similarity do you too hide?
Afraid to accept a challenge, too timid to rise to your feet?
Too embarrassed and ashamed to ever admit defeat
“I’m in control of my life and what I say goes”
Somehow find it hard to shake that dreadful feeling that maybe you’re wrong
Or worse, maybe it shows
Hiding in anger for its so easy to find
All that’s needed is to press rewind Enough fuel to feed the fire and keep it burning hot
Haunted by the past even by some things you thought you forgot
You never know tho when they just might reappear
From the foggy forgotten forest, to the cripplingly crystal clear
That sad actuality that each cold and empty nite is exactly what you chose
Loneliness lingers longer than laughter
Especially when you feel it right down to your toes
©2014 Shavon Taylor CloversAllOver.com
Wild Smile
Isn’t it funny the way life twists and turns?
So unsure of all those who lurk around
Can every face I meet some how be impure?
I can’t help but notice the pressure, the weight on every set of shoulders I see
I wish there were a way for me to lift off that stress
To make it feel like all the worlds troubles just weighed less
Tho how would life look if we all floated around weightless
A world full of air heads who couldn’t care less?
To walk the journey without feeling the rain can you imagine?
What then would make us realize our worth?
For without struggle there would be no victories
No accomplishments, not a single thing would make sense
Still I’m stuck here seeing these upset faces,
These Ghosts that have taken conscience places
Blank stares, lost with no dreams
Still I beg of you how can I help?
For without conscience you won’t stop,
Without dreams you’ve no goals
Nothing to aim for
Nothing to push you that extra inch, or often that mile
The one and only thing I have found,
That makes even the smallest difference to the people standing on either side of the fence
Is a smile
My smile I swear has impossible powers
It’s as though those around me can’t help but to join me
No matter their current status, famed or feared
My smile is one to be revered
For a brief second everyone’s worries just disappear
If only for that quick hello, or head nod, even mere eye contact becomes some sort of smile contract
Love me or hate me you simply couldn’t stop the muscles if you tried
Don’t think you too can’t change the world in some small way too,
Simply be sincere with every smile and let your heart shine through
Watch as even the darkest souls smile back at you
©2014 Shavon Taylor CloversAllOver.com
Changing Spots Don’t Stop
Stalled, distracted, annoyed yet not destroyed
Just a lil perturbed, no calls?
Won’t react let it all fall away instead and just take this time to play
Stressing and worrying
Debating and contemplating
STOP
In my head thoughts swirl while in my hair my finger twirls
BOUNCE
I’m ready to pounce
This kitty cat’s on the prowl
What sound will you stir from her, a pleasured purr or a playful growl
Will you give her creepy chills or will she show you her sneaky thrills
Either ways she’s quite a cheeky girl
She’s sleek and she’s slick
Quick quips slip from her lips
When you approach you’re unsteady and unsure
Will she let you pet her, are your intentions pure?
Does she really even care, who knows she might just take you right there
Duality for which she can’t be blamed
One side reserved and refined, the other just unruly, she’ll never be tamed
Which of her 9 lives will you have the pain or pleasure to endure?
Will you accept the challenge of this changeable cheetah?
If you wish to say yes, I do hope you’re sure
©2014 Shavon Taylor
Aching Acres
Windless whispers
Rustling sound of hushed secrets
Lost in the dusk
That twilight hour Before night gives way to black darkness
The scariest time of all
Lone dew drop in a desert
The last chance of survival
Can’t let those big fish swallow you no
So small and insignificant you seem imaginatively
Immensely winding woods
Tightly knit forest of dreams
Thoughts pop to memories
New beginnings from sad endings
A fog has drifted, dispersed
Slowly slippin on this slope
Up about it all I will float
Looking down, wondering, hoping, considering
Change is in the breeze
Change no longer a disease
Shifting slightly, Walking, talking lightly
Letting it all just fall
This time it must work
This time I’ll find the answers to it all
©2014
Please help Sheena get her son to and from Children’s Hospital
This is my friend Sheena and her 2 boys. I have known Sheena for a couple years now and I have to say she is one of the sweetest most caring and compassionate women and mothers I have had the pleasure of knowing. I noticed her status on Facebook the other day requesting help with making a page. Her eldest son was diagnosed in September 2013 as an epileptic and has had 4 seizures since. She needs to be able to get her self and her son from Chilliwack B.C to see a specialist at least every couple months in The Children’s Hospital in Vancouver B.C. (For those of you who don’t know that is an hour and a half drive)
Her problem is trying to pay her car insurance off. She has been making payments for 7 months now and sadly has yet to make a dent. The interest is the killer, every payment made seems to go almost unnoticed in the grand scheme of things. She is hoping that she can get enough together to try and make ICBC an offer they will accept, they are known to accept a great deal less than what is owed if offered a large lump sum payment.
As you may or may not know I was working on building my Facebook page’s audience as well as kick-starting my website. So I knew a little bit about what she needed to do so I messaged her right away! I started the page for her and then added her to the admin team. (Go figure in the process completely confusing my Facebook widgets both here on WordPress and on Facebook. lol) Thankfully someone suggested a gofundme.com account because I had no idea how to go about actually collecting money, all I could do is get her out there and hopefully help her get noticed.
I was actually thinking to auction off a couple autographed poems with real four leaf clovers that I have found along the way and dried out in one of my writing books, but I’m not really sure how to go about that either, any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!
If you would like to help Sheena you can donate here http://www.gofundme.com/75ey64
I realize too that times are tough and some are finding it hard making ends meet themselves, to those of you I say if you want to help there is still a way!!!
Please Like, Share, Re-blog, &/or Re-post the more people who see this the more likely one is going to be able to help!
Thanks everyone for your support and kindness in advance.
Mr.Sun
Let this sun brighten your thoughts today and every day
Let him brighten not just your thoughts but also the words you say
Always remember no matter how dark your day may seem,
All it takes is the smallest ray shining through your nightmares to turn them to dreams
If you invite him in when ever you feel lost even in the dead of the night
From this day forward he will help you in your fight
Please know this too:
All you have to do is ask and I too will join in that fight right beside you
©2014 Shavon Taylor
Self Destruction Team?
Check out my latest poem on http://cloversallover.com/legend–key-.html called
“Together We Choose to Lose”
“Together We Choose to Lose”
When best friends both battle themselves and one another….