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Obscenely Grey Day for Mike Casaway
I can’t believe he’s gone, not one easily replaced
The day we lost him, the whole world cried.
The rain poured down, just as the tears streamed my face
He lit up any room, awlays sparking the most colourful conversations.
Not so careful, I swear he loved the confrontations?
Never one to fall behind, his was more the power of persuasion.
Wise beyond his years, the man quite honestly surprised me daily.
A lover of games, he just loved to be at play
Always after the laughter.
His verbal linguistics made it damn near impossible to match wits!
He cared for the right reasons and shared more than just feelings, from ideas to ideals.
Always had a point to make and advice if you were smart you’d take!
Don’t let it get too dark now without his guiding light
We all know he’d want us all to fight thru it
I’ll admit I barely knew him and tho I loved him, he will always remain a mystery
To those of you lucky enough to really know him I know you’ll miss him just as much if not more than I already do.
He was taken from us far too soon.
💜
Factually Strained
There’s something about this man that makes me smile agaian
Something about him makes me want to be whole again
To pull myself out of this hole and try once again
Now all my words said I question,
Every move made I retrace
Suddenly he’s gone,
Leaving behind nothing more than an empty space
What’s going on?
It’s barely been a while, merely a couple of days
You wouldn’t believe how sincerely I want him near me
It almost scared me how quickly I fell for him
Worse how quickly my fear grew that maybe he withdrew
I recently told a close friend I wished I could meet someone on the same level of my insane or even crazy, then just maybe crazy or insane is not at all what he would see
Instead he might actually see me
No shame, no blame
We could just be this crazy team
No need to play the game to claim our glory
Almost completely in sync, or so I thought
Now I’m back to thinking I’m insane
Once again I’m trying to break up the fight
Which will win tonight?
My heavy heart or my weary brain?
I ask myself does it really matter?
Sitting quietly in the crashing rain
Thinking I can’t be the winner here
Merely patients stretching thinner dear
It can be so hard to look forward to the future when your path is unclear
For now I’ll await anything at all to distract me
From the thoughts of how much I wish when I’d found him I could have finally found it too
Can’t Get Me
I’ve waited for so long
How could it be I was so wrong?
All this time I thought you knew the words
All along in our heads 2 completely different songs
The lyrics don’t even resemble the ones I heard
I’ve grown tired of sleeping away my days and running through the nights
I know there is no escape for me so now I guess in turn there’s no escaping me
It’s true
Yearning is burning
The spark to ignite my soul, always searching
Something, damn near anything, just to fill the hole
The place in my heart
Where my dreams never went unheard
It is now nothing more than a mark
An etching that holds notions below the surface
Leaving the truth drowning in the ocean
Swollowing the darkend reality
I’m not afraid to face it
Just don’t wanna hafta fake
I can’t go on pretending everything will work out ok alrite?
Instead for now I’ll say good night and once again slip away from this reality
Back to the place where none shall ever judge nor come near enough to break thu
You can’t get to me
New Me
New year means time for new you?
Isn’t that what we are all always saying?
Time to reflect, think of all the ways we consider ourselves imperfect.
Time to change, exchange all your bad for some new good
If I could convey one message, to the masses or even just a few
I’d tell you not to change a thing just keep on doin´ you
Forget about the prying eyes
Those who pass judgment will be the first to face it too
Not a single one of us is perfect nor should we aim to be
Don’t waste a single moment on the thoughts in someone else’s head
We have no control of that hamster wheel and they have no power no control over you unless you invite them in
If only we spent time, energy and money only on the things we should
If only we could walk away instead of followin´ the strays
All u gotta do is stay
When you get frustrated or you begin to doubt what it is your all about find a friend who can help, someone who allows u to talk yourself through
New year, new memories, new every thing if you just allow it to be
Lookin for work?? Come join me!!
Mess Explained?
If you could see in my house
In case you don’t already know
How I keep it shows the level of my meantal clarity
Happy, healthy, light hearted and uplifting
Or down in the dirt, slingin’ the mud
Right at myself
The more I hurt
The more I hurt those around me
Like screw it
They already knew it
I’ll be the first to jump in the mud
I’m in it like a stick
Ya I’m stuck
Holdin’ on, head heavy
No point movin’ on quick
On your mark get set, ready?
The fog is thick see that’s the trick
When it rolls me, when it enfolds me
Suddenly sold me on every lie
Tearing myself down
Next I’m tearing up
On the flip, when I flick the switch
Stark against the sky
Goin’ way outdside the lines
Quick clever wit
Jump on in lets explore
Colder than the dark
Longer than the black
I wanna come back
Just lacking the spark
Haven’t done nuthin’
Nuthin’s wrong ’round here
Until you look around my room
What’s goin on ’round here
You could never imagine the space
Holes you can see right thru
Like the soul of the excuse
The wisper of the pain
Lifeless battery
Drained
Best
Blown outta proportion
Right outta range
Contemplated extortion, instead turning a new page
Leaving the bitterness in the blackness where it belongs
Breaking through the storm, ready to blow on
Startin’ a fire just to watch it burn
Mustn’t forget there’s so much left to learn
Awakened
Awaiting the next turn
Bright blue skies, clear crystal eyes
No more disguise
Hiding only hinders the healing heart
Take advantage of the chance to make a change
Never expect perfection, never push too hard
Feel free to fold this hand, you can always draw a new card
The game is rarely easy, though it’s never really that hard
Remember to always love and to forgive
Even when you know you could never forget
The last thing you want when looking back is to feel regret
Heaven knows all we want ain’t always what we will get
Winner Winner Chicken Dinner
2 friends of mine are trying to win free tickets to Shambhala (if u don’t know what that is it is probably better that way so u won’t try to win the tix too lol)
***ALL U GOTTA DO IS CLICK LINK THEN LIKE Amanda Kennedys COMMENT {the one with pic above in it}***
Thanks in advance guys!
Amandas original msg to me:
Shambhala did a contest for two tickets that closes on Valentine’s Day and I was wondering if it’s possible for you to ‘like’ our photo? The link is here:
https://www.facebook.com/shambhalamusicfestival/photos/a.61294308820.69514.9633698820/10154575313103821/?type=3
Dost Thou Need A Subject; Read Me
When I read your words I no longer know what to think.
Let alone how I feel, how alone I feel.
You checked out so long ago, I almost forgot to check in.
You speak of rain yet nothing of the drain, where all that wetness gathers
You dare not think of it washing over my feet,
it’s not over; tho we both feel defeat
Never was there deceit to cover what was between us.
Tho now I feel I’d almost welcome the comfort, under the numb.
Numb is one of the many things we never could agree upon.
I’ve never had a moment of it, tho I seek it everyday.
You’ve no need to seek it, you boldly live it in every way.
Can you really blame me for not seeing what you now say I mean?
I’m the same me I’ve been!
What say you now all powerful being?
The wolf among a flock of sheep?
The Sheppard to my lil Bo peeps?
What dost thou ask of me?
What shall I shell out now to tear thee back from hell?
Where for art thou Romeo?
Thine Juliet awaits, poison poised upon pursed lips,
Awating a kiss
Who am I trying to kid?
I am no Shakespeare, and you are no Hamlet!
No poison shall be shared!
Tho a kiss may just be enough to wake you.
I know not if it will be enough to take you,
from your long burning flame of anger and anguish.
I just wish….just wait and wish
Tell me love what dost thou say of this?
What dost thou ask of thee?