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CRASHHH

Walking through the drugstore not thinking of you at all
In fact last few days you’ve rarely crossed my mind
Then there you are out of nowhere
Suddenly you knocked me right off my feet, when
You crashhhed into me
The memories of you whisper singing to my ear so softly
I once loved u madly now all thats left is mad
I don’t know when things started going downhill or how it ever got this bad
I don’t know when I lost you
Tho I know you’re no longer next to me
Maybe it’s just me but it all seemed to fall so suddenly
I could never have imagined it would end like this
I just can’t make sense of how we got from there to here
Once tied up and twisted was the way I liked to be
Now its my emotions stuck, jumbled up inside of me
I wish we could start over again We’ve been tossed overboard instead
Cast away are the things we once thought we’d forever cherish
Lost as my thoughts we are
Out at sea
Out of sight
Out like a light
Without a fight
Can’t let you swim around my head no more
Can’t kick you out of my dreams
Can’t kick you out of this store
Please tell me how it got so sore
How we lost it all and we still pretend everything’s ok
Tell me how
Tell me if we could do it over would you still ask
“Show your world to me”
Was it all just too much for you?
Quiet now
This relationship left lifeless
shhhhhh into me n I come into…..

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My last unheard words.

I thought for a moment you were almost human, like you almost cared

I have no problem admitting I’m wrong, unlike you I’m not scared!

I know you don’t like being wrong in fact I’m sure you despise it.

So don’t mind if I take a minute to rewind it.

I’d like to point out just a wee thing or two wrong with you.

I realize now it’s not just me you lie to, we both know you lie to you too.

Don’t bother trying to convince me you were and are happy before and without me.

You do not trust, you doubt me.

The funny thing is you’re so stuck, it’s stupid.

Once long ago I saw it in your eyes, you too had been struck by that drunk prick Cupid.

You went thru my things seeking anything to use to fuel your fire of distrust!

At once I read your look of disgust.

You did everything in your power to tear yourself away.

What I don’t understand is why you think you have to pretend everything is okay.

For a few days a friend floated up from the past and you let your guard down.

I’ll admit it was actually kinda nice having him around.

For 3 amazing days you let me in, a place I knew you’d never let me be again let alone stay.

To allow yourself to be happy just isn’t your way.

I’d never seen you so happy before nor a glimpse even since.

If you won’t tell me, at least admit to yourself it was nice feeling the warmth of someone else.

You held my hand, danced fingers lightly on my skin, even snuggled in close that day we slept in.

I almost feel sorry for you, living in anger just to ensure no one can hurt you.

I’ve told you more than once and proved many times I am truly incapable of telling lies.

Sadly now even if you changed your mind, it’s too late cuz you already changed mine.

I would have loved you, put none above you.

Now it’s too late and I’m not sorry to say it’s too bad cuz I really did love you.

©Jan 27 2018

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What Cha After?

What Cha After

How can one be so selfish, all the while believing everything done is selfless?

Never allowing a single soul to see the feels just to seem so truly alone and helpless

Its senseless at best, lying there claiming to be defenseless

Lies spread round here n there just until they’re scattered everywhere

No matter where we look or where we go, it’s not too late, as time passes they only grow

Pass along the message, right on down the line

Pay no attention to the static on the line, like staring thru the crosshairs: focus down the line

Is there a chance we can keep it straight, maybe not miss the target this time

Maybe not miscount or mislead, sharpen that tongue hun let’s hear your honesty

How bout you bow out cuz all your talking has done nuthin but fill me with doubt

Support? Na we all just suck we tend to let it all fall apart

Silently we stand alone claiming we’re all together

Silently we scream claiming we got it all together

And when none of us are united how are we expected not to fall

Realistically we are all just humans aren’t we al only after it all

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Byte of the Apple

So misconstrued the idea of the ideal.

Misfits have no place here!

You can’t keep, there’s no space here!

Memories immobilized

Since when are these times to close our eyes?

Choosing not to see is no different than following blindly!

Masses of misinformed, misguided souls find their ways here.

They lie for days here,

Not realizing all they seek never stays here.

The truth my friends is not what pays here.

Lost are those iFound

Lost are those who’re iPhone bound.

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Surmise Surprise

I can’t decide weather to love or despise

I am not surprised you’re fine in my demise

I can’t describe exactly how I feel inside

Are you happy now that all you got left is pride

I’m the darkness we both chose to hide though we chose not to do so side by side enter next line I’m so sorry for the havoc

I did warn you or at least I  tried

I just wish all those times you said you loved me I could believe that even once was not a lie

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Life

Something so untamed, so unfair

Taken in the blink of an eye

Some call it a game, just playing away while it passes them by

None give it the fear it deserves

We are only here for the time we’ve been served

Yet not a single one received a sentence

No judge nor jury, let alone peers

All the while believing we could make a difference

See, we all play the waiting game unwittingly

Unwillingly torn away before our time

I look out at it the vast Blackness and I can’t help but wonder is this all there is?

Is this all there was, all there ever will be?

Then I smile and think maybe now he’s finally free

© 2018 Shavon Taylor 🍀CloversAllOver🍀

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Obscenely Grey Day for Mike Casaway

I can’t believe he’s gone, not one easily replaced

The day we lost him, the whole world cried.

The rain poured down, just as the tears streamed my face

He lit up any room, awlays sparking the most colourful conversations.

Not so careful, I swear he loved the confrontations?

Never one to fall behind, his was more the power of persuasion.

Wise beyond his years, the man quite honestly surprised me daily.

A lover of games, he just loved to be at play

Always after the laughter.

His verbal linguistics made it damn near impossible to match wits!

He cared for the right reasons and shared more than just feelings, from ideas to ideals.

Always had a point to make and advice if you were smart you’d take!

Don’t let it get too dark now without his guiding light

We all know he’d want us all to fight thru it

I’ll admit I barely knew him and tho I loved him, he will always remain a mystery

To those of you lucky enough to really know him I know you’ll miss him just as much if not more than I already do.

He was taken from us far too soon.

💜

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Factually Strained

There’s something about this man that makes me smile agaian

Something about him makes me want to be whole again

To pull myself out of this hole and try once again

Now all my words said I question,

Every move made I retrace

Suddenly he’s gone,

Leaving behind nothing more than an empty space

What’s going on?

It’s barely been a while, merely a couple of days

You wouldn’t believe how sincerely I want him near me

It almost scared me how quickly I fell for him

Worse how quickly my fear grew that maybe he withdrew

I recently told a close friend I wished I could meet someone on the same level of my insane or even crazy, then just maybe crazy or insane is not at all what he would see

Instead he might actually see me

No shame, no blame

We could just be this crazy team

No need to play the game to claim our glory

Almost completely in sync, or so I thought

Now I’m back to thinking I’m insane

Once again I’m trying to break up the fight

Which will win tonight?

My heavy heart or my weary brain?

I ask myself does it really matter?

Sitting quietly in the crashing rain

Thinking I can’t be the winner here

Merely patients stretching thinner dear

It can be so hard to look forward to the future when your path is unclear

For now I’ll await anything at all to distract me

From the thoughts of how much I wish when I’d found him I could have finally found it too

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Can’t Get Me

I’ve waited for so long

How could it be I was so wrong?

All this time I thought you knew the words

All along in our heads 2 completely different songs

The lyrics don’t even resemble the ones I heard

I’ve grown tired of sleeping away my days and running through the nights

I know there is no escape for me so now I guess in turn there’s no escaping me

It’s true

Yearning is burning

The spark to ignite my soul, always searching

Something, damn near anything, just to fill the hole

The place in my heart

Where my dreams never went unheard

It is now nothing more than a mark

An etching that holds notions below the surface

Leaving the truth drowning in the ocean

Swollowing the darkend reality

I’m not afraid to face it

Just don’t wanna hafta fake

I can’t go on pretending everything will work out ok alrite?

Instead for now I’ll say good night and once again slip away from this reality

Back to the place where none shall ever judge nor come near enough to break thu

You can’t get to me