I know you think you see thru me cuz in many ways we are one in the same
Tho what you seem to forget is in many ways I am one of a kind
I don’t follow the status quo, in fact I’m generally inclined to move against the flow
Honestly if you’d actually hear me out, you might finally see what I’m talkin’ ’bout
Instead of judgment of others based on old facts, nothing new
Makes it really hard to find any other view
There are many angles at which you may assess a situation or person
Sometimes things get tangled, information askew, may become perversion
Just as there are many sides to a story, paths taken to get to the same destination can contrast drastically too
Empty all the pride, set aside all the glory, past: shakin’ like a game it all changes fast and so dramatically
What you see and what you hear are not often similar to the thoughts that fill my head
Who you be when you’re here might soften your climb into my bed
Tho what you think or calculate ain’t often that clear
Even when you show your work, you can still miss the mark dear
Sure I may let you pass
Oftentimes I just would rather not fight and attempt to forcefully tilt your head
Such a miniscule difference at times can tip the world on such an axis that it will make your head spin
I realize you’ve been played and hurt before and you think our similarities are somehow lost here
Tho found you are my dear
Like the key to your house being attached mysteriously to the one for your car
Open up maybe you don’t have to actually let me in but I’ll tell ya now, as if you don’t already know
The more you open up, the more truth you’ll find shown
Not merely my truth but the universal reality
The ultimate epiphany
Not discovered with the methods that are thought to be tried, tested and true
When assessing solutions take a chance once in a while and start it with a clear slate
Let the blanks remain without guestimated hypotheses
Wait to physically touch or see the answer on its own
I don’t want you to be vulnerable, just to be more aware of all the variables
Instead of colour by number, wait to stumble into a masterpiece
Release, let fumble, allow it to roll
Maybe you can cross this bridge without a toll
You may or may not know the greatest beauty sprouts from some of the darkest pains
If you look hard enough you may see the light inside this darkened place
Lighthearted laughter before the show, doesn’t have to equal disaster you know.
Look me right in the face and tell me to stay Only to turn and walk the other way?
Still I try and best believe I’ll try again, I will always get back up, I will always live again
This will never be the end
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Awareness
I need a few minutes of your time friends and family, foes and a few I don’t knows, future somethings who currently feel like nothings.
Let’s discuss the darkness and try to shed a lil light on a few things I hope most of you won’t have to wish you already knew.
See I have come to realize that I am entirely direly creeping closer to my expiry.
Depressed.
What??? I know right?!?
Well the truth is the people who always seem so selfless, the ones who care more than any one cares to.
Crackin’ jokes bout themselves when they have to, if that’s what it takes to pull a smile out of you.
The ones who seemingly never have a bad day or just can’t keep a smile off their face.
These are the ones ready to come undone, on the brink of the discovery of the age old question, is there life after.
These people, my people they smile for you cuz they don’t ever want you to know the depths of the pain like they do.
They don’t want you to see how low or worthless they feel cuz empathy runs FAR to deeply in them and they can’t imagine moving any of that weight onto you.
Goin’ ’round crackin’ jokes pickin up people’s hope, the cost is merely a few more pounds on my coat.
That heart on my sleeve never stops beating or growing.
That pain that you got, it keeps overflowing, worry not tho I’ll clean it up without you even knowing.
My true sadness never showing.
When Robin Williams took his own life, I’ll tell you right now I was so fucking mad.
Not for the fact that I never got to meet him or any other obscurity.
I only got mad ‘cuz of my own insecurities, I got mad ‘cuz deep down I was afraid.
Completely terrified that I too one day may take a life that is so unfair and unkind to take.
Make no mistake, I’m not seeking attention, not by any means.
Those of you who know me, know full well how easily and happily I will cause a scene.
No, I’m not seeking attention, I don’t want you to worry ’bout me at all.
I ask instead that you pay attention to those who surround you, who always seem so upbeat, so seemingly complete.
The ones who can always make u smile when all you want to do is break down n cry.
The ones who never need cheering up yet they keep cheering you on.
Please reach out to them if they suddenly become silent or for days just randomly are gone.
Sleep is a great escape, don’t wanna be sad so in bed instead I’ll stay.
I tell you all of this in hopes we can help those who try so hard to go unseen.
So that maybe tomorrow we can all find a way to help ensure we won’t lose another soul who’s anything like me.