I know you think you see thru me cuz in many ways we are one in the same
Tho what you seem to forget is in many ways I am one of a kind
I don’t follow the status quo, in fact I’m generally inclined to move against the flow
Honestly if you’d actually hear me out, you might finally see what I’m talkin’ ’bout
Instead of judgment of others based on old facts, nothing new
Makes it really hard to find any other view
There are many angles at which you may assess a situation or person
Sometimes things get tangled, information askew, may become perversion
Just as there are many sides to a story, paths taken to get to the same destination can contrast drastically too
Empty all the pride, set aside all the glory, past: shakin’ like a game it all changes fast and so dramatically
What you see and what you hear are not often similar to the thoughts that fill my head
Who you be when you’re here might soften your climb into my bed
Tho what you think or calculate ain’t often that clear
Even when you show your work, you can still miss the mark dear
Sure I may let you pass
Oftentimes I just would rather not fight and attempt to forcefully tilt your head
Such a miniscule difference at times can tip the world on such an axis that it will make your head spin
I realize you’ve been played and hurt before and you think our similarities are somehow lost here
Tho found you are my dear
Like the key to your house being attached mysteriously to the one for your car
Open up maybe you don’t have to actually let me in but I’ll tell ya now, as if you don’t already know
The more you open up, the more truth you’ll find shown
Not merely my truth but the universal reality
The ultimate epiphany
Not discovered with the methods that are thought to be tried, tested and true
When assessing solutions take a chance once in a while and start it with a clear slate
Let the blanks remain without guestimated hypotheses
Wait to physically touch or see the answer on its own
I don’t want you to be vulnerable, just to be more aware of all the variables
Instead of colour by number, wait to stumble into a masterpiece
Release, let fumble, allow it to roll
Maybe you can cross this bridge without a toll
You may or may not know the greatest beauty sprouts from some of the darkest pains
If you look hard enough you may see the light inside this darkened place
Lighthearted laughter before the show, doesn’t have to equal disaster you know.
Look me right in the face and tell me to stay Only to turn and walk the other way?
Still I try and best believe I’ll try again, I will always get back up, I will always live again
This will never be the end
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Live The Way You Love
Funny lookin’ in the mirror yet I can’t look her in the eyes
Inside I hide so much fear from her,
Can’t let her see thru my disguise.
The pain still seeps in
The world awakens; still, she sleeps in
Letting it all pass by yet again
She hangs her head to cry
So lonely yet so full of love to give
Always searchin’ for help from above yet so low she chooses to live
Vowing one day she will let the sun shine in on her darkness
Somehow, some way she will turn all this sadness to bliss
There is no reason for anyone to not have what they need
No acceptable reason to plant the seed of greed
No longer will she allow herself to go with out
Refusing to let her judgement ever again be clouded by doubt
If only she stopped allowing the bad ones in,
She might see how much easier it could be to finally win
Her smile no longer she will fake
Another second of bitterness I honestly don’t believe she can take
This world, all humanity would prosper so greatly if we all merely did our share
If we only did things the way we all knew was fair
Never taking advantage of another for our own gain
Instead of stopping to watch what causes pain,
We could stop what created it.
Rather than fight, let’s debate a bit!
Take a lil time to listen to our fellow man, I bet we could come up with a mutually beneficial plan
Maybe take a chance
Find ways to change the world
Or just investigate it’s mysterious ways
A new view, seeing past all the games we used to play
No more excuses for committing crimes,
No need for catching people like fish on your line,
Isn’t anyone willing to make a sacrifice
In the end do you not see
We are the only ones to pay the price
Karma will come back for you,
Honestly it’s your choice if she’s nice
She only dishes what she’s taken
Still you wonder why your heart is breakin’?
If you think you haven’t earned this heartache, I’m sorry to say you are mistaken
She knows what we do, she sees all
She is not the reason you fall,
Though she could be the reason you can finally stand proud or walk tall
I realize my opinion may not mean that much to you,
That’s just fine, go on doin’ what you do.
You can take these words how ever you wish,
Just remember the same you put out,
Will end up back in your dish
©2013 CloversAllOver Shavon Taylor
A Piece of Peace
I wonder how I’ve stayed in the game so long
So incredibly strong when the effort is made so others will hold on
How can I be so meek and weak when it’s help for me I seek?
How can helping others initiate my self-destruct sequence?
If I were more like them and only cared about myself would it help, would it even make a difference?
Why is it so easy to hide our pain from the rest of the world?
Why is it I’m always confined to the rain, where my hair like this twisting rd is curled?
A complete mess, still I separate myself from the rest
I know without doubt I could pass any test
My will cannot be broken; my soul will never be barred
I’ve had my fill this time, I’m not jokin’
It’s beginning to take its toll
I refuse to let it carry on it’s already gone too far
The end of this game is near,
I know this that’s why I have no fear
I could so easily do this on my own
Aren’t you aware my mere mood sets the tone?
You will see my powers, I know my effect
Yet no one brings me flowers, still I get no respect
Left to simmer on the back burner, a lil disturbed all this time I’ve gone unstirred
Alone awaiting new arrivals
These times are all about survival
Everyone believing they only need to make it out
Don’t have the time nor feel the need to know what it’s all about
You can’t learn it all too fast
Before you know it you’ll have realized your life has passed
Take the time, enjoy the small pleasures
Forget finding a way all can be measured
The answers aren’t always exactly the ones you seek to find,
Sometimes what matters is just the journey thru your own mind
Take every opportunity to share the wealth of your knowledge
You never know, you just might be helping someone climb down from that ledge
We can only take so much before we start to lose touch
If we would all just help one another instead of fight
They say we won’t find world peace, but who knows we just might
No Escape
Laughing lightly as they try to fight me
Don’t they know I’ll never truly leave them be?
I will haunt them in their nightmares and their dreams
They will wake frightened by their own screams
Let your whole world fall into my hands
I’ll let it slip slowly through my fingers like times sands
Lost but never lonely cuz ya always got me
Rarely did you come by choice; most of you in fact were brought to me
Handed over like you had no free will
No choice, just wouldn’t listen to that inner voice
Maybe that’s why your here still
Here I will hold you for as long as I can
No escaping me, don’t matter how far you ran
You need more will power than you got
If only you were earlier taught
Maybe you were, maybe you merely forgot
I wish you luck
Try to get rid of me I laugh ha f*ck…
©2014 Shavon Taylor
Ever After?
How do you continually say such hurtful sh*t?
Next you apologize then I’m just supposed to forget?
Like it all just goes away?
How can you say you don’t mean the things you say,
When you say the exact same as you said yesterday?
How can you say you love this person you so venomously describe?
How can you spit such hate, while looking me dead in the eyes?
How do you believe you love me when all other evidence proves you’re beginning to hate me?
Why is it such torture when we are together?
Who am I trying to kid, when we’re apart it ain’t much better
Every breath, every moment, every word seems to go completely unheard, unnoticed
Underestimated is the pain of such misunderstandings
Tell me, honestly if we haven’t figured out how to be happy together yet, do you think we ever can be?
If we still spend every night like this will you ever attempt to understand me?
I realize nothing I do seems right to you,
I do things a lil differently than most I’ll admit
To be completely fair tho, it’s not like I kept it a secret
What is it you used to love about me?
Did I somehow change so immensely, or did you just finally let go of trying to make me the person you think I ought to be?
Once you say something you can’t just take it back
There’s always some truth behind it, no matter how hard the attack
Some I wish you could undo tho because they feel like the sharpest knives in my heart and trying to slice right thru
My heart that’s where you generally aim your linguistic sword, always going for the kill shot
Each blow hurts so much more than you may have thought
Yet I get back up, trying to hold on only to be pushed back down again
Fighting so f*cking hard to just ignore the pain while refusing to show my shame
I truly am so lost you know, no matter how hard I look I rarely seem to find my way anywhere
Do you really think I float so freely thru life, nothing in my head but air?
If only you could peek inside and see all these damn thoughts weighing down on me
I’m like a chameleon always in the background, seeming to blend right in
I just can’t keep up the fight any more, it’s really beginning to look like neither one ofus will ever win
Hurting each other instead over and over,
every day and every night
Aren’t you tired from this fight,
because honestly it looks like there’s no end in sight
©2014 Clovers All Over
Forgotten Forest
I wonder if you seek your happiness in the same way I seek mine
With such cold calculation realizing there is none there to find
Saying with such pride “I’m ready to change”
In similarity do you too hide?
Afraid to accept a challenge, too timid to rise to your feet?
Too embarrassed and ashamed to ever admit defeat
“I’m in control of my life and what I say goes”
Somehow find it hard to shake that dreadful feeling that maybe you’re wrong
Or worse, maybe it shows
Hiding in anger for its so easy to find
All that’s needed is to press rewind Enough fuel to feed the fire and keep it burning hot
Haunted by the past even by some things you thought you forgot
You never know tho when they just might reappear
From the foggy forgotten forest, to the cripplingly crystal clear
That sad actuality that each cold and empty nite is exactly what you chose
Loneliness lingers longer than laughter
Especially when you feel it right down to your toes
©2014 Shavon Taylor CloversAllOver.com
Self Destruction Team?
“Together We Choose to Lose”
Please Heed My Warning
GREED:
The most common source of violence world wide, the single worst emotion grown by far too many, the incurable hunger without harvest, the one thing that can drive you to do anything; even that ONE thing you never thought you could do. It infects minds, inflicts pain, brews anger and hatred in a revolting stew of aggression mix it with passion and what you will find is a disgusting, disfigured, dysfunctional, demon that only aims to destroy us all.
BEWARE: FOR NONE ARE TRULY EVER SAFE FROM THE EMOTION MOST EQUATE TO NEED
©2014 Shavon Taylor
Daddy’s Girl
So young, so sweet, so innocent
How can this be, Daddy’s lil girl now an Angel to heaven she’s sent
No longer bound by the limitations of growing old
Never again will he be alone in his cold
She is free now to do whatever her wish, whatever she feels
Yet left here on earth is a hole in his heart he doubts will ever be healed
Eternal youth and beauty that’s how she’s remembered
For him I know there shall be no such day so cold as that day in December
How he must be hurting, I can’t even attempt to understand
All those memories will forever linger of the times he’d held her little hand
It breaks my heart to imagine how his faith too must have been stripped away that day
There are no words, no matter the strength of their comfort that will send his hurt away
How the world can be so cruel, I just can’t understand
Things can turn upside down so fast, no matter how hard you try to stick to a plan
Tears fall from many eyes on this day,
As they remember the beautiful soul taken long before her day
My only hope among all the despair is that he knows no matter the time, problem, or place
She will always be there, all he has 2 do is envision her face
A love between father and daughter may not be one to be considered rare,
Though I can tell you that love is one in which no other will ever compare
©2013 Shavon Taylor CloversAllOver.com
Breakdown or Breakthrough
I get so incredibly frustrated because it feels like I’m running out of time
That and the fact that no matter how I try, I just can’t keep you off my mind
I’ve said I’ve let you go, but can’t bring myself to actually do it
You say you have no feelings for me, but I truly believe there’s much more to it
Driving me crazy as even the smallest sings you refuse to acknowledge
It’s so hard for me, living life precariously teetering on the edge
Mere moments from my next break, never knowing if it will be down or through
Funny thing is no matter which way I lean, it seems I’m always leanin’ on you
The one person who believed in me when no one else would
The only one to try to help me escape a world that you just never could
I’m not sure what you want from me, if anything at all
The one thing I do know is, you’re always there to help me up after every single fall
I can’t thank you enough for all you helped me through
I just wish there was a single thing in this world I wanted, more than I desire you
© 2013 Shavon Taylor CloversAllOver